Saturday, May 22, 2010

I hate nursing. Now what?

You're a nurse. You're paying off student loans with interest rates so high they make you dizzy. You're a new grad, probably working a crap shift in a crap unit, because that was the only job you could find. You're dealing with sick people every day, bullying coworkers, crazy family members, and inscrutable doctors.

And you hate it. You fucking hate it. Your life is a misery; you dread punching in. You lose sleep over having to return to work this weekend (because you've got the crap shifts). You obsess over how miserable you are, but you don't feel like you can quit.

Because of money. Because you've invested all this time. Because the loan guarantors are coming after you for payments, and it hasn't even been a year yet. Because you'll disappoint your family and your friends. And, most of all, because leaving a field that is widely seen as a Fulfilling, Sacred Calling That Only A Few People Are Suited For carries a huge stigma.

Y'know what?

It's okay to hate nursing.

Really.

It's okay to do something else with your life.

Sometimes *I* hate nursing, and I do it and think about it and blog about it and get quoted in books about it and sometimes lecture about it for pay and for free. The key, though, is that I only hate it sometimes. Most of the time, I'm as happy as a baby elephant in a kiddie pool. As messy as this job might be, it keeps me coming back, because it does something for me that nothing else does.

If you hate it all the time, it's time for a change.

I got a BA with a double major in music and sociology. I had no idea what I would do with it; write protest songs, maybe? I hated studying music. Hated it. I have a fair-to-middling voice with no real ability to act or interpret what I'm singing, and I barely scraped through on piano class because I hated screwing up so badly, I could barely practice. It cost my parents tens of thousands of dollars and untold worry to finance my degree, and I ended up doing everything from working in a bookstore to doing voiceovers and voice-mail mazes until that fateful day that I walked into a Planned Parenthood, asked for a job, and discovered what I'm really good at.

And you know what?

My folks, and my husband-at-the time, were baffled by my decision to go to nursing school. Not a one of them could figure it out. Not a one of them understood what it was that got me so het up over nursing, though they could appreciate that I was het up. My father finally said to me one day, "Johanne, I've figured out why you like nursing. You're the only one who was ever good at math."

The point of all this is, she says, taking another swig of Hardcore IPA (quite nice, by the by, if you like a fresh-hopped, dry, strong beer) is that you don't owe it to anybody to stay in a field you hate. Presumably you've done enough of it by now to understand what it is about it that makes you unhappy, and what it is about nursing that's a bad fit.

Eventually, the people who love you will realize that you're happier being a bank teller or a firefighter or an airline attendant, and everything will be fine.

I'll miss you. I'll throw you a huge party when you leave to go to firefighter school, and we'll keep in touch--and I'll be really proud that you decided to do what makes you happy.

Because, at the end of the day, you cannot compromise your own happiness for a paycheck (or to save face). You have to do what it is that you know in your gut will send you to work every day without feelings of dread and horror.

It's okay to hate nursing. Nurse Jo hereby gives you absolution, a blessing, and the help-wanted section of the local paper.

89 comments:

Albinoblackbear said...

I hated nursing for the first 6 months. Hated every second of it. Couldn't sleep, couldn't eat...nothing.

After that slowly the pattern recognition began and I started feeling slightly more competent than my pencil case at nursing.

After that it was a slow climb to enjoyment.

I think it is good to know when you're starting out that you might grow out of the 'crying in the bathroom at work' phase and blossom into an amazing nurse as well.

Brie said...

I totally get this. I spent 4 years earning a degree in chemical engineering. I knew halfway through that I did not want to be an engineer, but I finished, did well, and accepted a position that made my parents beam with joy and a salary twice what my non-engineering friends were receiving. 2 years into it I felt like I'd sold my soul and knew it was time to figure out what I wanted for myself.

After career counseling, personality testing and a whole lot of soul searching I realized that nursing was where I should be. I quit my job and knocked out the pre-requisite classes and will enter an accelerated MSN program this fall.

To anyone who feels I should "consider med school", "become a physician assistant", or "just try another engineering job, you'll make more money", by all means, feel free to submit your own application to the future occupation of your choice. I wish you nothing but the best.

messymimi said...

Growing up, I had two teachers who loathed teaching. Looking back, it is easy to see they did it because they had no choice -- back then, girls could be secretaries, nurses, or teachers.

They were mean and abusive. They obviously didn't want to be there, and needed the money.

That is the other reason not to stay in something you hate. You will not be good at it, you will not be a happy and likable person, and you will negatively affect others (to this day I hate math because they were so abusive when I was first learning).

Excellent post.

felder said...

To be a newbie and hate nursing is almost a given. You have to find your niche and and confidence. Sometimes you are in the wrong area (who would not HATE med/surg). I found that when I work with great people - I don't so much hate my job. I would suggest to any new nurse to change areas/hospitals before walking away for good. Yes, loads of IPA will help too!!!

Homemaker Man said...

I never finished college. I'm going back to school this summer. It's been at least 12 years since I've taken a class. In two weeks, I start work on the pre-reqs I need to get into a two year nursing program. I feel like whenever I have doubt or wonder if I'm making the right decision, your blog will be one of my main sources of comfort. Thank you.

Andrew C said...

I studied computer science for three years while working at a large tech company before admitting I hated my classes and my job. I've just completed my CNA training, have been accepted into a nursing program, and have a job offer at a local nursing home. I'm finishing my technology job this Friday, and will be earning half of what I am now - but it's worth it to not hate my job!

St Catherine said...

Copycat. =D

A NURSE said...

I always *say* I hate nursing, but to tell the truth, I don't think I would have loved anything so much as nursing. That love/hate thing is always there for most nurses.

Would I have loved to do something else instead? Yes. Would it have been practical to do something else? Not in my mind.

Anonymous said...

Jo,
you are the best.
love,
NURSE8 :)

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Gretchen said...

I got a degree in religion with a music minor because I was good at them and I liked the teachers. One quarter into grad school, I realized how much I hated academia. Now, a few jobs later, I'm working as a security guard. It's not all roses, the pay leaves a lot to be desired, and I'm certainly not going to do it forever. But I'm happier now than I ever was as a grad student, and I've got a stable job I enjoy while I figure out what my more long-term plans are.

Anonymous said...

I hated nursing and did the world a favour by leaving. However, it made me the calmest first time mother you ever met... So a couple of kids raised and now I'm working at becoming an archaeologist. We all gotta do what we gotta do.

Barb

Scrub Ninja said...

I totally agree, even though this is the opposite direction from my situation.

I was a computer programmer for pretty close to 15 years. I liked it for the first few years, and at some high points in the middle, but eventually it turned into an uninteresting, un-fun, unfulfilling slog. I kept at it for two main reasons. First, I was great at it; second, it paid really well.

A couple years back I had two new realizations. First, I could be just as great at some other career. Second, I was spending an increasing percentage of my career in between jobs, which meant it wasn't paying as well as I thought.

Therefore I made plans to get out of the tech sector and be a nurse instead. My BSN classes started yesterday, and so far, I don't hate it yet. =B^)

No matter where you start, it's definitely not easy to ditch an established career and move to something else, but nobody deserves to be miserable. Making the change is like tearing off a band-aid: a short pain followed by relief and freedom.

Coffee Run said...

One day, I shall put pen to paper and write my memoirs. Until then, I have a quote on my monitor that I will be looking at for another two and a half weeks before returning to school for my 2nd bachelors, this time in nursing: Happiness precedes success, not the other way around.

* Never "settle" for less than the joy you are entitled to.

* Live without regrets, and learn from your mistakes.

"Insanity is repeating the same course, over and over, and expecting a different outcome."

Cecilia said...

yup, I hate nursing, even though I know I'm good at it. I would like to go to a different field, but I don't know what and I don't know how... :(

lifeimproving said...

Ha -- I got into nursing after a double major, hated my internship, went to the career center and the lady said, "Well, maybe you should volunteer."

I walked into Planned Parenthood and they gave me a job, instead. After three years there, then working in HIV/AIDS testing and education for six years... I graduate in less than 40 days from nursing school :-).

And somedays I think I made the wrong decision, but most days I'm very happy.

Heidi said...

Crap shift on a crap floor? Yep, sounds like new nurse hell to me! Combine that with a crap hospital and no wonder so many of us newbies don't make it through the first year. When I was in nursing school I was utterly baffled as to how anyone could hate nursing, but then I got my first job... working PM's on a ridiculously busy and dangerously understaffed med-surg floor in a hospital on the verge of being shut down for lack of funds. I cried on the way to/from work everyday, often during work, and also on my days off. Berated myself for being so stupid for actually choosing to be a nurse. But then, got a job back at big academic medical center where I went to school and now I love nursing again. Long story short, I think where you work can make all the difference, so before you quit try try try to find something else. (I know that's much easier said than done right now of course. Nursing shortage... where are you?)

Marjorie said...

I agree with Felder and Heidi about where you work making a difference. When you are in a toxic environment and you feel like you have no friends or allies, then it is time to find an opportunity elsewhere. I've been in stressful jobs before; the difference was the people around me.

Kyle said...

I have been an RN for a little over 1.5 years. I loved my first job- critical care intern on a cardiothoracic floor. Got right into the CVICU after nursing school at a wonderful, magnet hospital. Couldn't stay because I got engaged and my fiance was living 5 hours away. Him having a more established and better paying job (plus living in my favorite town where I grew up and went to college) I moved there. Now I'm on A CRAPPY FLOOR ON A CRAPPY SHIFT AT A CRAPPY HOSPITAL. Cardiac tele floor, very understaffed, very unsafe! I feel so stuck and am HEAVILY considering leaving nursing for the fact that this hospital is union and I have to be on this floor for 1 year before I can go to another. So, where else would I want to work? ICU, duh. Will I be able to get there once my year is up? Doubtful. This hospital also has a critical care internship and hires 6 new nurses every 6 months and they get first dibs on ICU positions. 12 new nurses a year... small number of beds on ICU... highly unlikely I'll get there. The last nurse got hired into ICU after applying for SIX YEARS! I cannot keep up this misery for 6 years hoping to get a break... :(

Anonymous said...

I started out in nursing as a nurses aid in 1978. My first memory is of lining my stuffed animals up and feeding them smarties, changing their dressings and taking care of them with my "pretend nurse kit". But now, 10 yrs. later after 5 yrs. of school, I feel like I have just HATED every single minute of what I am doing. I have endured demotions, declinations of jobs I was more than qualified for, and one humiliation after another, only to find myself hating it more and more every second of every day! I just don't even know what to do with myself. Right now I would rather go work at McDonalds or Arby's than return to my current job as a staff nurse in a nursing home...I mean, how low can you get???!!!! Most days I would rather be dead than go to work, but what alternative is there? The money is ok, but how long does that make a difference?? I just Want OUT NOW! What is a poor soul to do?

Anonymous said...

I have only been a nurse for six weeks, and already I feel like my guts are on fire 24/7. I can't concentrate, I can't think, I can't enjoy my life. I am so stressed out! It is a med-surg rehab facility. Eventually I will be exptcted to take care of 38 patients by myself. We have everything, schizos, manic depressants, trachs, g-tubes, would care, everything. I made a med error my second week. I made another one my forth week. This last week I gave insulin to a patient who wasn't scheduled to have any at HS. Fights break out between patients, pain is never controlled, and I never know what to do! I feel like I make too many mistakes, and don't know enough. How many mistakes are okay to make? Everytime I make one my trainer says she hates her life. I used to be able to give everyone a smile when I came into their room, now I can barely manage a forced grin.

Is it normal to feel absolutely crushed in the beginning?

Anonymous said...

I'm still in nursing school with three semesters to go before I earn my RN, BSN.

I'm struggling to play the "competent nurse" role.

I've been severely ill for seven years now. Serving as a nurse while reconciling my own experiences used to be simple. I was easily compassionate (and still am) and I felt comfortable working in a medical environment as a volunteer or student. But during the last two years I've had a lot of very stressful medical experiences, including very invasive/painful testing and procedures. I've been stripped of my dignity when I was already in pain and afraid. One nurse became angry with me and verbally abusive when I started crying before a procedure.

I've been traumatized by doctors and nurses and when I close my eyes and picture a hospital room... I see the view from the bed, not the doorway.

I can't even focus long enough to walk through a basic client assessment in my head. I'm starting school back this week and I can't sleep because I am so miserable and afraid that I will fail or perform badly in my clinicals.

Anonymous said...

I came into Nursing with a "calling"... pretty deep and intense stuff... after being diagnosed with a benign brain tumor 11 years ago. I worked as a CNA, then Clin Tech, then EMT, I got a BSN, I'm two years away from completing the MSN part-time. I graduated in 2007 and did ER, Public Health, Case Management, and PACU. AND NOW... I don't know what else to try anymore... I hate it all!! I'm either bored to death or I'm overwhelmed and overworked (depending on the job). I am an excellent nurse, I can do med math or IVs with my eyes closed... and the worst part is that being a Nurse is part of my identity as a person!!!! I find myself considering other options but I have no idea what to do other than be a Nurse... I'm a Nurse in the core of me... it's as if "Nurse" were my middle name... I am a Nurse with every fiber of my being... but I hate what Nursing does to me on a daily basis... I hate that my days are 14 to 16 hours long... I hate that hospitals treat Nurses as irresponsible children... they monitor or clock-in times to the dot, they cut our brakes in half if we're lucky to have any, they over work us to exhaustion.... even with a Union behind us... which does absolutely nothing for any Nurse, I must say!!! I am so lost... I hate Nursing.... but I am a Nurse with every cell of my body!!!

Anonymous said...

I have been a male OR RN for 13 years and I fucking hate it. I hate working with dumbshit ancilllary staff, retarded incompetent nurse managers and dickhead surgeons.This job just makes my back and my head hurt. The OR sucks. Stay away! You too will become a walking 35.00 an hour hand maiden to a bunch of cocksmoking jerk offs. Everything you learned in nursing school will vanish from your memory banks. You will become a bovie plugging, suction dumping paper shuffler whose vocabulary will be reduced to yes, no, i do not know and it's on it's way. You will learn to cuss with the best of them and you will pickup drinking. Having to deal with lazy fat ass PCA's and even lazier mouth breathing ST's who think they know everything but couldn't figure their way out of a paper sack. And you will really love it when you have to work with a controlling little queer CRNA who loves to make everyone miserable. I still take care of my patients but I have come to enjoy mopping the floor much more; it brings satisfaction. I can escape the monotonous whining and crying from crybaby surgeons who act like a bunch of spoiled little bitches if their room isn't turned over in 15 minutes. They run and tattle like a little bitch to the NM; give me a break. If you are a new grad RN go to the ICU, ER or even he floor but stay away from the OR.

Anonymous said...

what to say????

Anonymous said...

i'm a student nurse about to graduate in the spring and already i'm googling "i hate nursing" every couple days. i only "chose" nursing because my family pushed it on me and it's the only degree they were happy to help finance. i can't quit now and i think reading posts about how nursing can suck the soul out of you is kinda a good reality check. so many of my fellow students are all enamored/delusional with the idea of being a nurse and making the "big bucks" (ya right), and me, i'm kinda just expecting to be feeling like a suicidal fish-out-of-water grunt the first few years. another selfish reason i settled for nursing is because i'm pretty certain it'll change my personality for the better in that it will make me more assertive and more of a "team-player" because as it is right now i'm pretty introverted/non-social and i want to get over that awkwardness but at the same time i'd rather be my timid compassionate self than a blabber-mouth gossipy heart-of-stone biotch. but who knows,... i think you can learn to like certain aspects of any job, given enough time and confidence, so maybe this nursing thing will stick. I know i definitely don't want to be stuck in the same hospital forever so if 5 years from now i haven't moved on from nursing i'm thinking travel nursing or home health would be the way to go.
why anyone would invest thousands and thousands of $ into a nursing degree is beyond me. whenever people tell me they want to go into nursing i encourage them to go the community college route first so they're not financially trapped in a field they hate.

...best of luck to everyone

AJ said...

I have been a RN for 4 years. I graduated with my BSN and I knew I was going to hate it from my first clinical rotation. I had a nursing professor sit me down and tell me that I was going to be a great nurse but I wasn't going to last more than 5 years in the profession because I "care too much". She couldn't have been more accurate. My clock is winding down and I am ready for a career change.

I love helping people. Unfortunately, there are many variables which pull you away from actually being able to do this.

I have discovered that if you are constantly taking care of others (personally and professionally) and not engaging in any self-care ~ you will eventually resent your patients and burn out. My advice is to have hobbies and don't take every shift offerred to you. Take care of yourself. You will be worked like a dog if you let them do this to you. Always remember - "put your oxygen mask on first". I wish I had done this.

Pick you battles - with co-workers/management and patients. Yes, the older nurses will "eat you" and make you prove yourself. I have promised myself I will never do this. It does get better, just show you are a team player and they come around.

Some positions are better than others but I have found the 'do more with less' philosophy' to be universal right now. Perhaps I have just had bad luck. We all know it is the patient's who suffer in the end but who are we?

I thought I had found the perfect position at my current job but today we had a nursing meeting and we were told to improve our "customer service" - exact quote. I don't feel like this is what nursing is all about.

Anyways that is my two cents. Kinda therapeutic to throw it out there

AJ said...

I have been a RN for 4 years. I graduated with my BSN and I knew I was going to hate it from my first clinical rotation. I had a nursing professor sit me down and tell me that I was going to be a great nurse but I wasn't going to last more than 5 years in the profession because I "care too much". She couldn't have been more accurate. My clock is winding down and I am ready for a career change.

I love helping people. Unfortunately, there are many variables which pull you away from actually being able to do this.

I have discovered that if you are constantly taking care of others (personally and professionally) and not engaging in any self-care ~ you will eventually resent your patients and burn out. My advice is to have hobbies and don't take every shift offerred to you. Take care of yourself. You will be worked like a dog if you let them do this to you. Always remember - "put your oxygen mask on first". I wish I had done this.

Pick you battles - with co-workers/management and patients. Yes, the older nurses will "eat you" and make you prove yourself. I have promised myself I will never do this. It does get better, just show you are a team player and they come around.

Some positions are better than others but I have found the 'do more with less' philosophy' to be universal right now. Perhaps I have just had bad luck. We all know it is the patient's who suffer in the end but who are we?

I thought I had found the perfect position at my current job but today we had a nursing meeting and we were told to improve our "customer service" - exact quote. I don't feel like this is what nursing is all about.

Anyways that is my two cents. Kinda therapeutic to throw it out there

Anonymous said...

I also hate nursing. I got my AD in nursing in 2006 after getting a BS in 2003 because I panicked after the only job I got right after graduating in 2003 was a job in a cellphone store. I was acting like a brat, I didnt do any internships in college yet expected to walk in2 a 40k/yr marketing job. Maybe I shouldve stuck it out and climbed my way up the corporate ladder, maybe there's a reason y I went to nursing school and was only a nurse for about 5 yrs. All I know is I have no idea what I'm supposed to do now, i'm not working as a nurse and I cant bear to even talk to my mom (who is a nurse and who was so happy that I went back to school and became an RN) cuz everytime she asks "Do you have to work tonight?". It makes me feel awful to think that so many people work so hard to become a nurse and I am just not wanting to do it.

Anonymous said...

I came into mental health nursing waving my sword of righteousness. I now wish to fall on it. I'm 46 and tired of know-it-all's, handing out buckets of medication, and watching my back. "Physician heal thyself" said the Wise Man. He knew.

Anonymous said...

Ugh...I started nursing school feeling motivated and excited that I finally am pursuing a career for myself. To help other's and save lives. Schoolwork was simple for me, but as soon as clinical's came about! AHHH! I wanted to break down and cry because I realized that it's not all it's cracked up to be and you don't feel as much gratification and accomplishment as you thought. A crappy building filled with terminally ill patients, with crappy staff,and crappy briefs. Alot of patients just want to be left alone to waste in bed, but you have to "encourage" them to get out and smell the roses and play stupid and hopefully you don't get a patient who tries to bite, punch or scream because their not as stupid as staff try to make you think they are and know their going to die anytime all alone in a disguisting hellish place. I know not all nursing homes are like that, but ours is.

tired RN said...

I have been a nurse for 20 years. I have loved it for all of those years. I have worked in many different areas and have enjoyed it all. But, for the last 3 years I dread going to work. I can't turn off my "problems" with the work environment. The demands of constant patients complaints, the push to do more, the constant demand for another shift. I'm plain tired. But what do i do now? It's all I know and all I have loved.

weareone said...

I am feeling frustrated, depressed, and confused. I graduated less than a year ago with my BSN, got my RN license, and got hired at a good hopsital in a Nurse Residency Program. I've been on my own over 2 months on a busy PCU (Neuro/Trauma), and already don't like it. The people I work with are great for the most part, and very supportive. However, I feel like I am very slow, the doctors scare me, I don't feel like I know what I am doing a lot of the time, and I admit . . . I take shortcuts with charting and paperwork, because that's what bogs me down. I broke down two weeks ago in private to my charge nurse and admitted that I didn't know if I could "do this job" much longer, and that I was so stressed out all the time. I feel like there is so much paperwork and charting to do, that I don't get to really be there for my patients the way that I want to (which is simply to talk to and listen to them). But it feels good to vent.

Anonymous said...

I just quit nursing. 15 years of being a or rn. Done. No more asshole surgeons, incompetent surgeons, no more weak managers, weak staff, smart mouth pa's, know it all crna's, ( by the way your just an overpaid assistant). Good riddance.

helen from cypress college nursing said...

Finished nursing school in 1981 and my first job was on a med-surg floor at a "state-of-the-art" medopolis/hospital. I did actual nursing for five days. I quit medopolis and ran off to psych nursing where I lurked in quasihealthcare for three years. I even rose to position of nursing supervisor in a quasihealthcare institution. Once in this position, I often shut the door and refused to open it when someone knocked on it or answer the phone because I was busy studying for my bachelor degree in history and English. My passion for history and English translated me into a high school teacher for a large district that pays me more money than if I would have stayed in nursing. I traded dirty asses for Jane Austin.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your post. I really needed to read this. Sometimes I feel like an actor in front of patients. Smiling while moving their pillow up/down/left/right, warming up ice cream for 10 seconds, or whatever other silly request. We are short staffed so I'm doing pretty much everything on my own. I don't remember the last time I took a real break. Then I'm put in the middle as patients/hospital administrators are complaining about quality of customer service. I think I've lost my spirit in nursing. Honestly, I was happier making minimum wage in retail. Now I'm taking business classes on a part-time basis. Can't wait for the career change. Again, thank you for your post!!!

Anonymous said...

I did a Yahoo search on "I hate being a nurse what else can I do" and stumbled across this blog. Jo, I want to hug you and cry it out on your shoulder. Thank you!

Anonymous said...

I have been a nurse for 16 years. I know work in a crap facility where I am expected to hand out medications to 45 patients within a 2 hour time frame, complete repetitive documentation on computers that freeze or shut down. Manage two cna's who are just as tired as I am, daily admittions with another slew of paperwork. I don't even know my patients, I am too busy trying to complete the documentation and get the never ending med pass done, worried about getting yet another write up for missing something.

Anonymous said...

I am a nurse going on three years now. I've worked 11 hospital systems and several types of units and shifts. It's official....I HATE NURSING! I spend my days off in a frantic search for something more, something better. It's the money that sucks you in! Don't do it! I'm stuck, depressed and don't know how to get out!

Anonymous said...

Thank god I'm not the only one. I am only in my 2nd semester of 4 and I feel like a piece of me is dying every day. I only went into it because I live in a small town that got rid of a great surg tech program and the radiology program has so many prereqs, it would take forever to get it. I'm also 41 and am running out of time to have a real career. What can I do now? I thought that I would be okay with nursing but the more i'm there, the more i realize that it's not for me. I wish I had the cheerleader attitude that everyone else in my class has. I guess for now, I will just have to be miserable

Anonymous said...

Really great assessment of the sentiment. I was a nurse for 9 years and grew to hate it. I transitioned out by going back to school and working less and less in the field until--lo & behold-- I found I have been teaching literature for 12 years and not changed a catheteer or started an IV in at least 10.

Nursing is a good vocation, but not a good career-- at least not for me.

Anonymous said...

It's great to hear I'm not the only one. Especially after hearing how thrilled my old nursing school classmates were with their jobs.
I don't hate work every day but it's very stressful and I never feel like I accomplish anything, though there are a few good nurses who assure me i'm doing fine. My stnas say i'm great to work under, but I'm just not as happy as i hoped i would be when i graduated last june and got my job in LTC/ Assisted living/ Rehab in october.
I'm hoping it gets better, and I don't get fired for being slower or not being as knowledgable as the seasoned nurses who make few mistakes...
I became a nurse to help people, bur i'm not really seeing where i'm doing that now :(

Jessi said...

Often times as a nurse, you will feel (and sometimes be) beaten, abused, defeated, loathsome, exhausted, worried, stressed, scared, undervalued, unappreciated, and depressed.

This is absolutely normal for this field. I have been in it for 6 years and I have seen it from many different perspectives. You can try to change things, but it often doesn't work.

If you can't handle these things, don't choose nursing as a career. You will neglect your own life, your own health, your own feelings, and your own sanity to pursue a career in a field that you probably won't like. And when you find yourself job-hopping, telling yourself that the next job will be better, don't blame anyone but yourself.

I would rather work at a cash register... at least the patrons appreciate you (most of the time).

Anonymous said...

I graduated with ASN degree from a community college then was offered a job right out of school with a pay of 28.00 Hr. The second day of orientationI knew I hated nursing for a fact. I originally went into nursing because I had a "calling". I am a caring and compassionate person. The hospital was a complete mess, we were understaffed, nurse manager was not familiar with telemetry, but managed a telemetry floor! Case load was 6 neuro and telemetry pts during the night. After my 12 weeks of "orientation", I was running charge and expected to respond to all codes while also having a full pt load. I knew I was pushed to my limit when I had a case load of 6 pts, 4 of them needed blood transfusions and one was turning for the worse, plus 3 codes happened in the hospital that night. I switch jobs since then, make more money, 99% less work. But I still hate nursing! Starting my BSN now, but I want to switch out of the nursing field. But, I feel stuck!

Diane said...

Wow, it is painful to read all these posts. I do understand and I know that each and everyone one of us whether we are RNs or LPNs, have probably been through and felt these emotions and gone through tough times. Nursing can be so extremely difficult. Not only are the different shifts, mandatory overtime,working holidays difficult but also the actual job itself. Even with the best intentions , great skills, and a compassionate heart, we still can not do all that is expected. We are placed in situations that basically set us up to fail and then internalize this and think that we are failures..BUT we are not. Many times we are not given the tools or resources to accomplish all that needs to be done within our tour of duty. I have a very entrepreneurial spirit and have started a website called NursesHaveChoices.com . Check it out if you want. But also just know that there is another way. You can still do what you came into loving but now on your terms. I wish everybody luck in whatever you do.

Anonymous said...

That is exactly how I feel. I've been graduated for 9 months now, and I absolutely fucking hate it. I love old people and I am good at it but I just hate it. I feel stuck because it's paying the bills and I don"t have the money to go back to school and the things I want to do don't seem practical even though they would make me happy. Haha life sucks.

Anonymous said...

To all you people who hate your jobs,please do everyone
a huge favor and get out. You make everyone miserable,
including the patients.

Anonymous said...

I have been qualified for 34yrs and I hate nursing.I am a very good nurse,but I hate it.I hate the politics,the politically correct posturing and the fact that,no matter how good I am,I will always be a second class citizen.

Anonymous said...

I just stumbled upon this site. I love being a nurse, caring for patients is not the problem. I hate the system. The system has been broken for awhile now. They just throw new lugnuts at it and call it something else. I'm fed up with incompetent lying managers. Greedy CEO's that don't give a hoot about the patients period. Surgeons that need some serious psychotherapy and the enabling codependent nurses that suck up to them! Sick of it all.

hi said...

My name is Mykethefish and I hate nursing. I have seen so many things in nursing that God did not intend for any human being to experience. You all know what I am talking about. But the one thing I hated the most about nursing is the nurses that I felt were too lazy to do their job and if you say something they will retaliate like a mad dog ... Political back stabbing.... I love people, but I feel that nursing is nothing but a phony profession. Money is all that matters to the many nurses I have met. I have been a nurse for only 7 years, yet out of that seven years I only counted 3 nurses that trully cared about people. So this nursing you all thought was going to be your rainbow was actually the storm that saddened my life. I would rather be a dish washer somewhere in a burger joint , at least I am happy and away from a profession that Florence would be ashamed of.

Anonymous said...

I HATE nursing!!! Im in debt from nursing school (bachelors), am working for a discriminatory company against gays, and work with a bunch of fucking idiots.
I'm the REAL idiot for choosing such a horrible career. I'm SO upset regarding the field, I'm can't think straight regarding what I should do ....at 39 years of age! I dont know who to turn to for help.

Anonymous said...

Thank you! I have always wanted to be a teacher but feel that I owe it to someone to stay being a nurse. Forget that, I am going to get my education degree.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for this blog. Although I don't particularly like nursing right now. I have decided to stick through it for now and see if I'll like it because as you say it is a hate/love thing. As others say I may like it after the crying phase is over from the hard work by getting a tougher and more assertive personality. Although I may be miserable or not particulary happy right now, I am making a difference in some people's lives when I go to my clinical days and plus I want to at least try to see if I can persevere through it. It also helped me see that I can later change careers if I so choose to and that it is possible. Thank you for this blog and saying that it is okay if nursing isn't for you. I am kind of on the fence, but I always try my best even if at times I feel I am putting on a face, but it's only so that I can try to give the best patient care they deserve. I am for now just a nursing student and I never thought it would be easy. I just wanted to be less of a burden on my parents and in no way do I underestimate nurses or anyone in the medical field at all. It is a hard job and they are overworked a lot and I appreciate it. Although I am sad alot, sometimes I really am happy seeing my patients smiling on my clinical days. Hearing thank you and you made me feel better makes me feel better too. Also hearing blogging comments from others like that you are burned out but is willing to leave in order to not take it out on the patient is great to hear because it goes to show that you still have compassion for other patients. I just wanted to vent a little. I appreciate everyone's comments and will try to see if I can work through the pain to see if I am meant to be a nurse. Thank you author of the blog and commentors. Sorry that I vented a lot because today I felt so confused and sad.

Anonymous said...

I'm 21, still young enough to choose a different field. I've known since I was in 4th grade that I wanted to be in the medical field. Helping and healing people. It doesn't help that I'm in a family filled with nurses, doctors, pharmacists, therapists and etc. Naturally all my educational goals were geared towards that. Fast forward to today I am a semester away from applying to the BSN program and I decided to take the cna course. I understand nurses are stressed and are demanded a lot from. I see it. I hear it. Imagine being a nurse tech on a 36 bed medsurg unit with 12 patients, no breaks. With nurses that treat u like your less than a human being. Who refuse to help you and expect you be at multiple places at once. Unable to voice my feelings because the other nurse techs are just as quick to stab you in the back. I've forgot why I even chose this field. And I understand now why I can't stand half of my extended family members. This field has changed them. You know that gut instinct, that feeling of pain and panic. It's your body warning you. The weightgain, the depression...why drag yourself thru mud when u can do something you love. It's never too late. Is the money worth your soul. I've taken care of nurses when they are 80, in a hospital bed, with multiple health problems. Is the money worth your quality of life? Stress kills. How can you take care of someone else if you can't take care of yourself.

Anonymous said...

You will loose your time. I am RN. excellent student for nothing. I don't find a job .... no new grad intetnships. I should pay and renew the license without use it. I hate nursing. ( my third career). I hate to invest time and money for nothing. Study many years is the worst thing that happened in my life

Anonymous said...

i hate nursing. i am sitting at my job right now and cannot stop reading everything and anything that has "hate nursing". nursing was my 2nd career. originally i have a bachelors in computers. worked for years and thought i need to do something more fufilling. got my bsn, which almost killed me because of all the stress and have now worked for a year at a subacute rehab unit 11-7. i love taking care of my patients, giving them my time and listen to their stories. everyone that works with me says what a great nurse i am (because i am really good at bottling my anxiety up). but deep inside i hate doing it, i hate having 10 or so patients to take care of. and most of the time i might be the only nurse around!! if something happens i cannot even ask for help because its just me. most of these patients shouldnt even be in our unit because of their aquity. im scared they are going to die on me, fall out of the bed because they are confused (and those bed alarms are a waste of money), or dr yelling at me because i dont know what they are talking about.

i want to RUN. but i feel like a trapped animal.

its funny because if you tell someone you are a nurse everyone smiles and thinks "thats wonderful" but if you tell them you are computer tech its just like "heh, whatever". nursing is very hard and my stress level has been slowly but SURELY getting worse and worse. i know that if i continue working with all of these stresses it will kill me.

Anonymous said...

I hate nursing too. Its all ive known since I was 23. I carry the health insurance, retirement, and make more money than my husband. I have to work full time and I cannot go back to school. I job hop but they are all the same. I am 31 and trapped.

Anonymous said...

I hated it too, but i love, love to teach it to excited young students...plenty of jobs here

Anonymous said...

I am a staff nurse in a nursing home, which I don't mind but... I hate my evening shift which tears me away from my children. I was at work when both kids took first steps. I started drinking waayyy too much after my shifts and wound up divorced because I was either at work, school, or drinking. I am in debt with student loans and haven't even finished my degree (currently an LPN). I am alienated from my kids now because I hardly ever see them, b/c of work hours. I am sick of it and just want a normal job with normal fucking hours, but I can't afford the shift pay cut either. So, I don't know. I should have thought more and planned better in regards to a career. Nursing has a tendency to OWN you, unlike other jobs.

Anonymous said...

I've been a dialysis nurse for almost six years. It is all I did since graduating nursing school. i like the clinic better than the acute setting but I'm tired of the patients. I don't want to help anymore....but don't get me wrong....i DO indeed help at work. Inside I hate everything I do now. I'm currently in grad school for nursing education. I think I would rather do something away from patients. Not sure if I'm going in the right direction. I got a new job three months ago in a large hospital here...but i hate it because I see so many rules and methods broken. I just dont get how we are supposed to follow policy when thewhole unit is breaking it. its annoying. i wish i had a desk job. i might quit soon.

Anonymous said...

Here is indeed the issue for me. I have been working for 6yrs as a nurse and I LOVE nursing. In saying this I HATE my job. I went into nursing to try and help others; to try and be there for people on some of the worst days in their lives. I feel like I have a strong enough shoulders to bear that burden. What I didn't realize is that those shoulders would be chipped away at by doctors telling me that I am incompetent or scolding me because I had the audacity to call them at 3am because they did not reorder a patients cardiac medication even though it was on the communication board and now their patient is crashing. Or that a patients family would call me everything under the sun- even the c word. Or that I would have a patient come at me with a broken beer bottle. And that management will not back you with any of the above issues. This is what I believe they do not prepare you for in school.
*breath*
In recognizing all there things I love my patients. I love educating them when i have a chance (which is indeed not very often) I like making them smile with a very cheesy joke, I like rubbing their back when they are in tears. This very small moments when I get to have a connection with my patients is the ONLY thing that has not made me quit nursing, but I am not sure if I will be able to do it for another 20+ years.

It is sad to see the fallout of great nurses due to their legs being cut out from underneath them. I believe that if they focused more on teaching coping skills in school this would be far less. It is crazy to think that nursing is one of the ONLY professions where they do not have debriefing sessions after a traumatic event; where they EXPECT you to preform miracles on a daily basis; where it is acceptable to treat us with disrespect.

I hope for the future of medicine that this changes. I hope people can regain the courage to get up and go to work with a smile; above all I hope that we can learn to keep our souls intact as we wade through a sea of shit on peoples worst days and be able to help.

Anonymous said...

Here is indeed the issue for me. I have been working for 6yrs as a nurse and I LOVE nursing. In saying this I HATE my job. I went into nursing to try and help others; to try and be there for people on some of the worst days in their lives. I feel like I have a strong enough shoulders to bear that burden. What I didn't realize is that those shoulders would be chipped away at by doctors telling me that I am incompetent or scolding me because I had the audacity to call them at 3am because they did not reorder a patients cardiac medication even though it was on the communication board and now their patient is crashing. Or that a patients family would call me everything under the sun- even the c word. Or that I would have a patient come at me with a broken beer bottle. And that management will not back you with any of the above issues. This is what I believe they do not prepare you for in school.
*breath*
In recognizing all there things I love my patients. I love educating them when i have a chance (which is indeed not very often) I like making them smile with a very cheesy joke, I like rubbing their back when they are in tears. This very small moments when I get to have a connection with my patients is the ONLY thing that has not made me quit nursing, but I am not sure if I will be able to do it for another 20+ years.

It is sad to see the fallout of great nurses due to their legs being cut out from underneath them. I believe that if they focused more on teaching coping skills in school this would be far less. It is crazy to think that nursing is one of the ONLY professions where they do not have debriefing sessions after a traumatic event; where they EXPECT you to preform miracles on a daily basis; where it is acceptable to treat us with disrespect.

I hope for the future of medicine that this changes. I hope people can regain the courage to get up and go to work with a smile; above all I hope that we can learn to keep our souls intact as we wade through a sea of shit on peoples worst days and be able to help.

Anonymous said...

I've worked as an RN for 5 weeks now and I hate it! I got into a Nurse Residency program that turned out to be a disappointment. The training and support I thought I would get never materialized. I feel so fucking overwhelmed. The charge nurse is a total bitch and my preceptor turned out to be a backstabber. I actually wish they would fire me so that I can get out of my 2 year contract. I cry everytime I have to go in. This is not a way to live.

Anonymous said...

The acuity in that ICU must not be very high. I work in a level 1 trauma center and we would never hire a new nurse in our ICU. Try a different hospital with higher aquity patients.

Anonymous said...

Nursing is really just a matter of controlling chaos for the period if one shift .
It's not always possible ! That's the nature of chaos.
The way to enjoy nursing is to give yourself over to the idea that some times your going to lose.
Folks will die. Post ops will bleed. Pills will be missed.
Bullies will bully And you May well get shat on.
Once you see the job as a challenge, a game and the shit you gotta do the steps needed to win. You can start to Have fun. It's o.k. To be twisted. Just have fun. Ride the chaos wave and remember there's someone comming to take over. Breath.

The Nerdy Nurse said...

So I get why some nurses would get the point of burn out and deciding that the "hate" nursing all together. It's a tough job and nurses are often under appreciated. In addition, my nurses work in hostile environments, without adequate supplies, and with little opportunity for breaks.
But nurses have something that many other professionals don't: Flexibility! There are so many nursing speciality that you can transition to to make a change in your career but still utilize your education and experience.
While I understand going back to school if you need to, or really have a passion for something that requires it, nurses just don't have to do this for everything.
If you're a nurse who is interest in a career change there is some really great information and resource in this article on Scrubs Magazine http://bit.ly/1arTy9q.

Jessy said...

I've only been working as a nurse for 3 months and I really don't know if I hate it or not. I felt so regretful during my last year of nursing school, debating whether or not I should even finish! I just hate to think of all the time, money, energy that would go to waste if I choose another field. The only redeeming quality of nursing, to me, is the fulfillment of taking care of most of my patients. Other than that I find myself hating it, not caring, and becoming more and more apathetic to it each day. My manager clearly plays favorites and I guess it was naive of me to think things would be anything otherwise. I just hate the feeling of being stuck, like there are no other options. I would love to be a biology or earth science teacher maybe... You can't put a price on happiness. I don't know if I should hang in there and hope for things to get better. I have dreams of becoming a CRNA, but if I hate nursing now, so early on in my career -- shouldn't I just get out now?

Kat said...

I'm a new grad working on a med/surg floor. I got a FT new graduate position, which few of my fellow students got. I have been working almost 3 months and I dread going to work. I have dreaded going into the hospital since my first clinical. I only enjoyed mental health for a bit but then had nightmares about the patients and found it boring at times. I felt that I should keep going anyways and not quit. I used to not mind night shifts but I hate those now too. I get terrible anxiety on my first day and I only have 4-7 patients. I don't focus on politics or management. The nurses I work with are helpful and supportive. I chose nursing because I wanted to help people, but this is not how I imagined it. I feel that my skills could be improved but I am a good nurse to my patients. Lately though I don't even care. I'm so exhausted and my back is in pain on my days off from all the turning and changing of total care patients. There are some good times in a shift.. funny patient moments or making patients smile but it is not often. I hardly get a chance to have a conversation with patients or give them a full shower. The only reason I'm staying in nursing for the moment is I can't figure out what else to do that makes the same amount of money or more. I also am feeling guilty that my parents paid for my education and could not afford things for themselves during the 4 years. I don't want to be in another medical job but am willing to try other types of nursing jobs that are not in the hospital. I want to change lives and make people happy. I'm 22 and feel so lost.

Anonymous said...

I am leaving nursing after 4 months of having my license. I stared on a busy med-surge floor that was full of bullying, unsafe patient ratios, and a total lack of oversight and support. My orientation was shorter than promised, I was given more patients than promised as a new grad, and was stuck away from my preceptor on a different floor. I finally left after a charge nurse tried to force me to take more than my max amount of patients and being told by the director that I would grow a thick skin within 6 months to a year, etc etc. I went to work every day feeling such anxiety that I would have to defend myself against bully charge nurses, minimal staffing, and a complete disregard for patient safety by the staff. I tried out home health but it lacked any training on their charting system...30 minutes of training several days after I started seeing patients and being told "it's easy, just go do it" whenever I would say I've never done a type of visit (charting wise...those forms are lengthy and very different from acute care forms and I didn't understand what it was asking for). I can be a nurse and care for people, that isn't the issue. I can't put up with the bullying, the jerk doctors who make it a point to belittle you, the directors who think of you as a number on their staffing sheet, and the complete lack of training and support after you get out of school. The anxiety of having people's lives in my hands while feeling like there is no one around who really cares if you know what you're doing or not or have what you need to do the job is just too much. I am going back to what I know I feel good about and don't wake up dreading going to...finance and office setting work. Being a nurse is not for me and that's okay...because it isn't all about nursing people back to health, it involves so much more BS than I am willing to put up with.

Anonymous said...

My heart bleeds as I read these srories..I've been a nurse 30 years. I've done all the above and clearly remember my first job at UCLA..thrown on a floor long before "preceptors" crying in the bathroom. For me, I get tired and resentful of other staff too but my relief is travel and/or contract nursing..u know there's a means to an end..u get thru ur assignment..no involvement with meetings etc..if u can't stand the ppl u work with u know in 8, 10, or 13 weeks u can take a break but make nursing work for you by seeing parts of the world and getting some perspective. Most I was ever at a job was 4 years..can't for the life of me imagine being in one hospital 30 years. Hope this helped..God bless you all ♥

Anonymous said...

I hate nursing! Ive been hit and spat on and developed a uterine prolapse but still have to go to work because if I tell anyone Ill lose my job. Im so depressed as I cant do anything else. Im always extra swee to the patients and try my best but it is not worth it.

Anonymous said...

It was a second career for me, and I hated it from my first day; however I was smart enough to just get a ADN degree. What kept me going is that I would only work per diem or part time and recover on my off days. Now, I quit my last crappy psych job after 6 years and I CAN'T FIND WORK due to the flood of recent grads. I remember working in a hospital as a dietary aide 30 years ago and the nurses (and doctors) didn't work half as hard. A patient stayed on a med surge for a week for something as simple as a tonsillectomy and the nurses would only get maximum 3 admissions per shift. They had LTC wards, nurse lounges, special code teams (guys) that responded to codes. Med/surg floors now resemble ICU's. Also, the public wasn't so smart-sass. They had strictly enforced visiting hours and if they got "loud," security would kick them out of the hospital. Don't know what I am going to do since I have six more years to retirement. Also, I gained 80 lbs being a nurse which I can't shed. I show up for an interview and the young corporate-type recruiter gives me the "ick" look.

Anonymous said...

I've been nursing for 20 years, first vascular, then med/ oncology, back to vascular, then fast track medical then ICU. I've been in ICU for 12 years and I loved it until this year.

Budget cuts and outdated DON's who should retire and never work on the floor to really understand the changes of what nurses now do at the bedside, have removed 12 hr shifts.

Back to the dark ages of late early shifts, 1 weekend off a month and the endless only 2 days off before coming back after nights, 1 being a sleep day.

They talk about compassion saturation, which is now very true because I feel like I spend my entire life there!

Our government is moving to contracts, so the next job I have will only be temporary if I move on.

But yes everything about me is nurse, BN, PgD, MN....

I Really do need to move on, but where to next? I wish I had that answer, cause I currently spend my entire 2 days off searching for that new lucrative career move.

Until then I'm stuck. Rant over. Hail orally other nurses who keep on keeping on :)

Anonymous said...

It's good to hear from those who share the same "pain" as I do. I've been an RN for about 14 years and feel absolutely duped, bamboozled, lied to - you can fill in the rest. Currently work in a large US west coast medical center, staff RN, relief charge when called upon. The on-floor committees (ie. leadership, staffing) simply don't change anything.

I too look @ what others do for a living - cashier, store clerk and imagine myself doing that.

I question my reasoning for getting into this line of work and question those who want to enter into this profession.

Most likely, I'll go back to school. With nothing to do with nursing.

Anonymous said...

I agree@!@!

Anonymous said...

You can never enjoy anything especially time with kids.

Anonymous said...

Been a nurse for 8 years and hated it since I started. I had no idea it would be so aweful when I started nursing school! My first 2 years I became clinically depressed and had to go on medication. The horrible shift work, the toxic environment and the abusive doctors and nurses alike make it nearly unbearable. I decided after 2 years of ortho neuro and surgical nursing that I had to do something different for my own sanity, so I went to pre op and pacu. This seemed like a better option with better hours and a big pay cut. But I did it. This area seems to have even more abusive behavior from co workers and doctors then the last place I was at. I work more call to make up the pay difference so I am there even more now then I was before. The above post about surgery and abusive behaviors is very accurate! I never see my children, but I do the best I can and try not to let the guilt get to me. I strongly discourage anyone I know from going into nursing.........it is not a rewarding profession as I once thought, it is not fulfilling as I once thought....and it literally will suck the joy out of you. I am a much different person today then I was 8 years ago not for the better..... It's unfortunate but true. I encourage people to follow their passion and wish that there was some way it could do the same.

Anonymous said...

I hate being a nurse, especially on the unit I work on. Toxic environment to say in the least. I look at nursing as a bullsh_t profession now. What a waste of time. I truly HATE certain patients now, plain and simple. Like this whiny, self serving, self centered, pain in the a$$ b_tch patient I took care of over the weekend who made it a point to continually remind me that she and her husband are lawyers, and wrote everything down, called the nursing supervisor if her pain meds weren't given EXACTLY when they were due, etc. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! How people can behave this way is freaking beyond me... I'd expect more out of a 2 year old child who doesn't yet have the developmental capacity to know better.

I've been working as a nurse less than a year and I'm already burnt out. I was really looking forward to this full time school nurse job I interviewed for, which I just found out this morning that I didn't get.

Judge me all you want, but until you've been in a nurses c. diff covered shoes, you'll never really know.

Anonymous said...

Grad in may. Had three diff preceptor whom two of were awful. One literally left the hospital while on shift. There was no teamwork. Nurses that had been there for years..20+ were quitting or getting fired. Nurses were scared to talk to director. No team work and just miserable atmosphere altogether. Not to mention 8-9 pts. I never had less than 7 and a few times had 8 with no tech. That's just the icing on the cake....I've got a list. Well I ended up quitting my first nursing job after 6 months..With no two week notice...and am now unsure of even what to do with my life.

Anonymous said...

I just quit my first nursing job (med-surg/stepdown) for ICU. I don't know if it'll be any better/less stressful but there's only one way to find out. I had the biggest smile on my face all day just knowing I only have to work 5 more shifts of hell...

Anonymous said...

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Anonymous said...

I love that reply!!

Anonymous said...

I have been an LVN for almost 15 years and a CNA before that and I HATE BEING A NURSE!!! There are no good jobs for lvs, only in nursi
ng homes and welfare medical clinics. The paper work and charting is overwhelming and I am asking myself daily should I chart or do treatments..I never get to use the bathroom and I have to practically eat my lunch whole without chewing. Iam abused by family members and patients who think they know everything. I almost dropped out 3rd semester but my friends and family encouraged me to finish..so I Begrugedly did...now I cant afford to quit and work a lower paying job and I have too much debt to go back to school. Ya..I wish I would if picked another career. Nursing sucks...and I would never suggest that anyone do it.

Anonymous said...

You are getting paid to care for people who are at their worst! Suck it up and nurse or get the hell out of it! These comments are crazy. Nobody like politics, policy, MANAGEMENT...but that's every fucking job!! Sounds like there should be a lot of soul searching going on here. Nursing is hard. It's emotional, and it's unfair most of the time. But you have all the power to make a difference in the lives of people who are at their worst. There comes a point where a little empathy will go a long way. Put yourself in their shoes and if you wanted your fucking ice cream defrosted for 10 seconds while you were sick I bet you would ask your mom without hesitation.

Anonymous said...

You forgot to add fat shit nurses that that their personal lives and are unbearable to be around for 13 hours. If bacon thirty is the highlight of your shift you're definitely part of the problem.

jewals said...

MR or Ms Anonymous, if your resume or diction resembles your responds in the slightest it is no wonder you can't fins a job, You can't even formulate a proper sentenced for God seeks!

Anonymous said...

Jo, THANK YOU!! I really needed this! 35 years of nursing and I've been burnt out for a long time now. I need to make the 'break' to follow my heart and connect with my creative side. I'm so tired of dreading my work days. Gotta be brave and MOVE ON! It's time and I SO appreciate your words of encouragement... I really needed this desperately.

B~ said...

I think nursing can be like opera. "you either love it or hate it," as stated by Richard Grier in the movie Pretty Woman. I have been a nurse for 21 years, 14 of which a Nurse Practitioner. I went into nursing thinking that it was going to be great, but quickly learned after a short time working on an Oncology/Med-Surg unit (night shift) that I could not it for the next 40 years plus. I thought the solution would be to become an FNP. Surely things would be different and better. I am sad to report that the difference is not much. I find myself fighting for respect regarding my profession and expertise. If one ,more patient asks me "why did you just not become a doctor?" or "what is a Nurse Practitioner, or better yet "Are you the doctor's assistant, " I think I might start drinking heavily-LOL (Just Kidding)! Although education,professionalism, and knowledge are a reflection of my clinical expertise, physicians, medical assistance and even other nurses still can be quite disrespectful of NP practice. After all these years I am burnt out and regret not taking a different path when I had the opportunity. DO NOT waste time. It moves too fast. If you hate nursing leave. It is really okay. Be brave. Find something that you truly want to do and do not mind doing it almost everyday. In the end you are only doing a disservice to yourself and patients that need you to continue doing something you absolutely loath.-B

Anonymous said...

I AM AN LPN FOR THIRTEEN YEARS IN LONGTERM CARE. IT IS A FUCKED UP JOB AND IT SUCKS TO HELL AND BACK. IF YOU ARE THINKING OF DOING IT DONT. YOU WILL REGRET IT, UNLESS YOU ENJOY WORKING LIKE A FUCKING MULE AND GETTING ABUSED AND OVERLOOKED FOR PROMOTION EVEN THOUGH YOU MAY BE MORE QUALIFIED THAN THE YOUNGER STAFF, IF YOU DONT SUCK SOMEBODY OFF YOU WONT GET ANYWHERE EXCEPT THE SLAVERY POSITION YOU ARE IN. IT IS THE WORST CARREER CHOICE I EVER MADE , I USED TO LOVE PEOPLE, I USED TO WANT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE, NOW I KNOW YOU CANT BEAT THE SYSTEM, ITS ALL ABOUT MONEY, MANAGEMENT DOESNT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU OR THE PATIENTS, THEY TALK THE TALK BUT DONT WALK THE WALK. I HOPE I DIE BEFORE I HAVE TO BE IN A NURSING HOME. LAST BUT NOT LEAST, TO ALL THOSE FAMILY MEMBERS WHO BITCH 24/7 ABOUT THE CARE THAT MOMMA GETS, WELL, WE ARE DOING THE BEST WE CAN,IF IT AINT GOOD ENOUGH THEN FOR GODS SAKE TAKE MOMMA HOME, AND GO FUCK YOURSELF.