Monday, April 25, 2011

Odds and Ends

Poor Max has had some broken sleep lately. Flashes (the smaller, stripey, smarter cat) has decided that he misses cuddling with a dog at night and so has started sneaking onto Max's bed when he thinks Max is asleep. If Max is asleep, Flashes cuddles until Max wakes up. At that point, Max lies there for a moment, thinking the doggy equivalent of "he's right behind me, isn't he?" and getting more and more freaked out, until he can't stand it any more and has to get up and go sleep in the kitchen. I've been finding Flashes on the very edge of Max's bed in the mornings, looking sort of lonely.

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Bad is having a tube in your brain.

Very bad is having a tube in your brain that then gets infected.

Worst of all is having a tube in your brain that drains nothing but pus and chunks of brain tissue. Jo went *erp* O_< at that.

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If you haven't already read Mindpop, go do so immediately.

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The drought, while not broken, has been moderated in the worst way over the last few days. A series of thunderstorms/tornadoes/supercells dropping golfball-sized hail has formed right atop us this week. While we've gotten some much-needed rain--maybe all of Littleton won't burn to the ground!--it's been exciting. I tried to lie down for a nap today and was disturbed by the howl of the weather sirens and the BANG BANG BANG of hail on the windows.

Max was unaffected. So were the cats. Little bastards wanted to go outside and play in it.

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The interview with the nice writer for Reader's Digest went swimmingly. Thank you for all your suggestions. I have one to add: "I'd never tell a patient that he's a moron for waiting a week for his stroke symptoms to improve before coming to the hospital." Although, you know, I'd like to. Especially when his wife bitches me out because "we're not doing anything" for the guy. Lady, there's nothing we *can* do. Aspirin, make sure he's not in a-fib, make sure there's no patent foramen ovale, rehab: that's the prescription for moronity right now.

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Nurse Ames and I are making our semi-annual pilgrimage to Dr. Crane's tomorrow. There's one stop we have to make first, at the PET center. My single Valium is safely packed away in my purse. I've gone from unworried to completely freaked out to fatalistic and drinking too much wine. Just as I was reminding myself that nothing was likely to have popped up in six months, the Steel-Toothed Brain Ferrets chimed in with the fact that it was only six months between a clean check-up and the discovery of The Toomah.

Oh, well. If the PET's clean, I'll celebrate for years. If it's not, I'll have more material for the blog.

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Bad is having a tube down your throat.

Worse is having a tube down your throat and an intensivist that doesn't know how to set the ventilator correctly.

Worst of all is sustaining lung damage because your intensivist set the ventilator wrong. Then you end up with us. Whether or not that is an improvement is up for debate.

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And finally: A group of us (including the Cute Neurosurgeon and That Other Really Cute Guy and The Third Really Cute Guy, The One With The Crazy-Eyes) from work have started meeting for fun, adult events like going to the kids' exhibits at the science museum in Bigton (with flasks; that's what makes it adult) or going off to the driving range (with flasks). We're all heading out to a burlesque show this weekend; one of the girls from the CCU is making her girdle-and-pasties debut. We plan to dress.

La Belle Dame Sans Merci, a colleague who can wear a fascinator without looking ridiculous, is lending me a waist cincher. I am practicing using liquid eyeliner to make those little cat's-eyes lines and have bought a new dress. I am stepping up my game. Der Alter Jo has mentioned that she might join the fawn-walking-on-ice brigade in a new pair of FM pumps, and Stoya is going to wear something red and strapless that will make her look tigerish and exotic.

When I asked La Belle Dame what she planned to wear, she said, "Oh, just this black dress I've got. And five-inch platforms. And a fascinator. And gloves." Hence the stepping-up of the game.

Wish me luck. The evening will be a win if I can escape without a broken ankle. I haven't worn heels since I surprised Mom at her own birthday celebration a few years ago.

4 comments:

This Nurse said...

I had to go google what a fascinator was.

Too corny to say I'm fascinated? Can't decide whether I like the look or not...but thanks for the introduction :)

messymimi said...

Must be nice to be a pet that can leave the worry about what to do when that danged hail breaks a window to someone else.

Hope you have a blast on your night out.

Anonymous said...

There's nothing in The Book of Common Prayer for Protection From Steel-Toothed Brain Ferrets. However, there is a prayer for quiet confidence. May God give you the quiet confidence that you are going to manage whatever happens.

As long as you don't freak out to the point that you refuse to have the scan, consider that you have done A MAGNIFICENT JOB. It would be nice if the Ferrets would go away, but if they don't, that's normal.

What would I want to see in someone who is recovering from trauma, in the first year, as a layperson? I'd want to see a reduction in emotional distress and a gradual return to activities the person values, whether that might be a career, volunteer work, a garden, involvement in church, parenting, etc. I'm seeing that.

Freaking out is normal, and doesn't take away from how hard you've worked to get your life back. If you can't freak out over a scan to check for a very rare, scary cancer, what can you freak out about? I don't even think it's a big problem if you get clear test results and you still feel worried, you still have some Ferrets hanging around. That's normal, too.

"For Quiet Confidence.

O GOD of peace, who hast taught us that in returning and rest we shall be saved, in quietness and in confidence shall be our strength; By the might of thy Spirit lift us, we pray thee, to thy presence, where we may be still and know that thou art God; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen."

Penny said...

I love that prayer, Anon. Thank you so much for sharing!

And I had to Google "fascinator", too. What with all the Royal Wedding whoohaa going on, I'm surprised I've not seen it mentioned in the media. I've learned something today. Yay.

The verification code for this posting is "wited". Yay again!